A Gift Unaccepted – May 10th, 2003 – The Day After

Magnitude…the word is powerful.  It brings forth the message.  It brings forth the accomplishments.  It brings forth defeat.  It – being, magnitude.

A few weeks before my graduation from Buffalo State College in Buffalo, New York – I was offered a gift.  And…I turned it down.

From this day forth, this particular day is the most regrettable of all.  I was offered an opportunity to compete against the finest long distance athletes in the United States.  Airfare…covered.  Race fee…covered.  Hotel & food…covered.  So that I could be afforded an opportunity to compete in the Olympic Trials.   I turned it down, and when I did from the person in which I was on the phone with, I heard a sigh.

In life – that sigh…that, being at the other end of that request…that’s a response.  That response is “it’s right here for you” – without having said a word.  “What in the hell are you thinking?”

“This is IT, man!”

Whatever and whichever that you can think of – silence was the worst response.

So, on May 10th, 2003, there I was, an athlete – about to be a college graduate, having completed my degree in Public Communication.  What was my answer to counter the offer?  A 23 mile run.  I punished myself.  All through The Town and The City of Niagara Falls, New York.

Those in Niagara Falls, New York – have failed a lot.  They try to patch up, repair…for what?  They try to make it “big”, only to have told that they can’t.

I chose not to.  The reason? It was so that I could satisfy my mother & her husband.  So that they could watch me walk across that stage.  What did I get out of it?  When I look back, and continue to do so…Nothing.

Do not reject The Gift. – Thomas F. Proctor, IV